I went to Tobago with the object of my affection. The only one. I have mixed feelings. Probably because I am the horner woman and I know that I should get out while I can. If I still can. It was actually great. He is an amazing person, kind, considerate, handsome, caring, giving.. Lawd Jesus I can go on and on.. did I mention selfless and Talented? Or Handsome and Fit? Perhaps I missed out dedicated and focused? Every single thing you would want in a man, he is. But he is not single. And he wants me and I think I am amazed by it, more so by the fact that I know he does care and I know that he is as frightened of it as I am, because it means that pretty soon he would be forced to make a decision. I am in awe that he can call out my personality traits and not find one thing that irritates him as yet.. he listened to me snore and actually laughed. Rubbed my limbs on the boat tirelessly just because I was cold. Hugged me while I slept and pampered me while I was awake. But when his cousin asked him if I was his Lady, we couldnt answer. That was odd. I don't know what he eventually told his cousin, but he returned with this knowing look on his face. But it wouldnt be the last time we were asked. That was a problem, it was also a problem because he had family he would have liked to visit on our day across there and we couldn't. They would ask too many questions. And it isn't like we have any answers. He tells me I own a piece of his heart, a piece of him and all I can think about is, how do I get the rest? I sit here just playing a waiting game, hoping that I get fed up before he does. But in the meanwhile, anytime I call for him, he is there. Amidst his incredibly busy schedule and million and one extra curricular activities, if I need him he will make the time. Its been a while since I've felt like this and had the feeling reciprocated. There are times when I think that yes, if I just block the girlfriend and his baby daughter out my memory, I can almost see us moving along a wonderful path. But I cant block it. Mayb this is not the path for me.