Alright well.. I've been sick. I caught this awful virus. I was horribly sick for my birthday lime and only survived with medical assistance AKA Vicks 44 (the entire bottle) But I am better now, apart from the sniffles and occasional cough..
Well I've decided to call it quits with my friend.. His situation is way too complicated and I feel neglected. So many reasons :
1) I am an external party. (anything happening in his life I am generally not a part of, his daughter, his family.. his triumphs.. yadda yadda and I can't see that changing)

2) His daughter - with a newborn, how much energy would you have to devote to someone else especially if your daughter is now living with you and the mother breastfeeding. Where daughter goes mummy follows.

3) The horner woman thing - it just depresses me, I like a man for me alone, not to be shared. Sneaking around not for me and I hate to have to make appointments.

4) If he dies, i'd probably just have to read it in the newspapers.

I think it hit me when he was sick and I wanted to take care of him, but I couldnt.. I couldnt offer him anything other than words over a phone, because of his situation. I am just fed up. So..yeah.