I went to church yesterday. It didnt help. I didnt get the peaceful feeling I was expecting to get. The fight was still going on in my head. I only understand when I start to read Khalil Gibran. I am reading his book called "the prophet". It s supposed to be a guide to life really, and some thing stand out.

When he speaks about Joy he says that "joy is your sorrow unmasked" and that you cannot eventually feel the fullness of joy without experiencing the depth of sorrow.
It does seem pretty straight forward, but I don't think most of us really think about it that way.