Mummy was sad today peanut.. I didn't go to work, cause I was mainly too tired, but very sad as well. I told your Grandma Jean about you too, and she said you would always be welcomed. I guess that comes as a relief, but what would your father have to say eh?
I thought I was fine, until I buss down in tears tonight for no good reason. I know its the hormones.. I know.. But I think I am trying to cover up a lot of pain that should be let out as well.. maybe I am trying to be too strong? But I have to be strong, cause it's only going to become more difficult. I suppose when you get much older, I'll be able to explain and hopefully you would be able to understand. I love you.